I think that warm weather makes me angsty. It definitely makes me cranky.
Lately… I don’t know. I think I cause my own problems sometimes. Today has been a doozy of a day. (Yes, I just said “doozy.” I may be 35 physically, but I’m definitely a grandma on the inside.)
This morning, I checked my mail to find notice from my doctor saying she is moving to a different clinic. The doctor it took me over a year to find. The doctor that didn’t give me strange looks because I present butch, that was comfortable with talking about sex (and *gasp* lesbian sex, including toys), that made me feel like I could actually talk with her about health issues instead of feeling awkward and uncomfortable and wishing I were anywhere else. Damn.
Then I got to work and realized I’d made a mistake that will cost my organization about $1,000. Now, in the big scheme of things (our annual operating budget is about $18 million–or was it $8 million –either way, it’s a lot), it’s not a big deal, but losing money is the exact opposite goal of my job. Anyway, my boss was great about it, so that’s nice, but I still feel like trash.
And then, to ruin my otherwise not great day even further, on the way home, I had a total jackass behind me. White, middle aged male, in case you were wondering what type. I was at a light, with a protected left turn, but the traffic turning was backed up into the intersection, so I didn’t go. That’s when he started honking, gesturing at me, and flipping me off. When the light turned yellow and I still didn’t go (with the cars ever present, blocking the other lanes of traffic), he got even angrier. Then when the light turned green again, and it was clear, he laid on the horn and gave a long lasting blast as I went through the light in front of him. He continued for quite some time, and since I was only going toward more non-moving traffic, I went about 5 miles an hour to get there (because I am a bit petty). Anyway, he finally pulled over after passing me, which made me nervous because I was worried he would get back behind me to follow, but he did not.
But what the fuck? What an asshole.
Regarding the woes I was having with my bestie, we have made up. She apologized, and we’ve talked it out, and I feel good about that. She is making a clear effort to make time for me, and that’s all I can ask for. However, her birthday has passed, and I still don’t know what to get her. Oi.
In non-angsty news (mostly), my sister’s birthday is next weekend. I found a super cool Dr. Who themed steam punk style fascinator. She’s a fan of both. Of course I decided it needed a hat box. Word to the wise: you can buy cute hat boxes at Daiso for $1.50. Do not attempt to decorate your own that you got at Michael’s. It’s a fuck ton more work than you would imagine, not to mention the cost is greater. Anyway, I got some cream colored canvas for the outside, plus used some great blue cheetah print fabric for the inside. I need to hot glue on a nice ribbon for the hat box band, and I stenciled on a fantastic Victorian style “S” (for her name) that I also sprinkled with diamond dust glitter. I should take pics when I’m all the way done because I think it’s turned out well. However, next time, I swear, Daiso it is. (I didn’t know until after I’d done most of the work.)
And now, I am sitting shirtless at my computer (damn weather), drinking a beer, and figuring out how to kill time until I head to my girlfriend’s for the weekend. (I am waiting for traffic to die down.)
I hope you all are having a better day than me. I also hope my weekend does not follow suit from today!