I know it’s been forever since I blogged. Not for lack of intention, but somehow I just haven’t made the time. I think a lot of it is that I spend all day on my computer at work, so when I get home, I don’t want to spend more time on it…
Overall, things have been great. There are a few hiccups at work, but nothing big or worth mentioning at this point. So I’ll get to the point of today and leave the last few months in the past.
Today I had Thanksgiving with my girlfriend’s family. Tomorrow we will do the same with my family.
But today left me feeling horrible. Growing up, my family had a bad relationship with my dad’s family, in particular his mom, but also his sisters tended to follow suit. They did not like my mom (and so by extension us kids), and it wasn’t a secret. I grew to hate holidays, and when we were finally uninvited from family events, I was relieved. I’ve always sworn I would never be with someone if we can’t get along with each other’s families.
So, my girlfriend’s mom is a mean bitch. The problem is that she is a mean bitch to everyone who is not her family. But my fucking god, it reminded me of everything I felt growing up at family holidays. And now I have to figure out a way to talk to my girlfriend about it. Somehow I have to be able to talk about it objectively, even though nothing I feel about it is objective at all.
At least tomorrow should be good. My immediate family has a pretty good time together over all. My brother will be there with the kids, as well.
Big sighs and deep breaths.